FINAL DECISION
A million things run through your mind when you make a decision that will change your life drastically. I contemplated the million things I may have done right or wrong that have led me to the position that I currently find myself.
I wondered about my parents death and what effect it may have had on my personality and morals. I wondered if that was what had made me become what I am? I thought about when I first asked Soft if he wanted a job. I think that was the question that most showed my immaturity. At the time, it seemed really cool to put my brother on, and let him feed off of my income. I was so enamored to the reality that I was making three thousand dollars a week, I didn't stop to think about the risks to myself, and my loved ones. I've regretted the decision ever since I'd made it.
The decision had led to Soft's death and No's entrance into a life of crime. I was sure, after Soft graduated, he would have chosen to actually become a real person with a real job. No would always be a criminal. I blamed myself for that.
I felt as if everything I had done in the last five years had been negative to every person I knew. Not one person I knew had lived a better life because of the life I led. This was the biggest reason that I had to leave.
Leaving was my final decision.
Poser's Dictionary
GET
OUT OF THE GAME- to quit doing something that is illegal
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