Be Prepared!
Your instructor is Professor Taltos
When we left off I was starting to realize I had finally bitten off more than I could chew. This world of cyber-sex was far more complex than I had ever imagined. As cocky as I was over the whole subject, I found I was reminding myself that all I had to do was click out of the room and that would be the end of it. I knew I didn't have to go any further but curiosity is a great instigator. I knew I would go on and I knew at that moment I would answer him. I was sure he was going to ask me to strip in front of my web cam or some such equally disgusting thing. If that were the case I would deal with it as the need arose. It's easy to click a mouse.
"Tell me about yourself." That was his request? " Just enough to let me know how far I can go with you. Tell me your fantasies; tell me what makes your blood boil with lust. Tell me what you want. Tell me how you would like to be touched! Tell me all the things you have never been able to tell a man face to face!" His request was simple so I began to type.
"My needs are simple, I have few demands from life. Most of what I have wanted or needed has been made available to me." I was being point blank on purpose. I wasn't a lost soul looking for satisfaction. I was happy in my world of real people and I wanted him to know that. I had no need or desire to be one of the chat room regulars. All
I wanted was to find the information I needed and leave.
He typed back "Omg!" meaning Oh my God. "You poor thing."
For some reason this really annoyed me. "What do you mean poor thing?" I retaliated." There's nothing poor thing about me ty (thank you) vm (very much)!" I was offended. I wasn't sure why but I was offended.
"Lol." Was his reply. "I'm sorry, don't get upset... honey, please." "I wasn't feeling sorry for you. I don't have to. For the things you don't even know your missing in your life, I can give you. And that makes me very happy. That's why lol, baby. Do you understand?" Now he was making me feel like an imbecile. To be honest I wasn't sure what he meant, but I hated to admit it to him. I was getting madder by the second. Yet you will notice I was still waiting for him to explain. I have always chosen to ignore the fact that curiosity killed the cat.
"I'm not sure I follow you" I asked him to explain, convinced he was rolling around his floor laughing by that time. "I am not missing anything in my life. I have everything I want here in the real world. Please explain." I knew my feelings were showing but I didn't care. I didn't understand what he was driving at and the obvious mental games he was playing were frustrating me. I began to wonder if this was part of the cyber-sex. Make her feel all nice and comfy and then confuse the hell out of her. Maybe that's what it was all about. Mind games, I was the queen of mind games. If I pushed him he would tip his hand without too much effort on my behalf.
"Oh my lady you have it wrong. I never said you were missing out on something. I said you were missing something. Something you didn't even know you should have. But if you will let me I would be honored to let you in on a little secret." He sent me a kiss with the message as if to say I'm sorry. I urged him on. "Alright then please explain." I hoped I sounded as ticked off as I was.
"Well, my lady come sit here for a bit and before you know it you will be in my arms again. But this time you will come to me willingly. And we will finish what we started. Let me explain to you what I hear and see in your words. If I am wrong then I am sorry for my presumption and I will beg your forgiveness." (Real people didn't talk that way did they?)
He carried on with. " I have met many a lady in these rooms. From all different parts of this world. I enjoy all those I meet. Even the ones that annoy me have something that interests me. I have found the world is full of amazing and complex people. But I have never met a lady such as you.
He continued on with. "You intrigue me with your denials of need. You come to me in your cold indifferent way, totally unaware of what you are looking for." He seemed to be almost angry with me. His words were not unlike a poet, I found myself thinking. Shaking my head I read on.
" You come here looking for answers. Yet you tell me you are complete in your real world. If your world is complete then you should have your answers already. I believe you instinctively search for answers in life that's why you're a writer. It's in your nature to always be curious. And that's why you are here. You're a smart girl, honey and you know there will always be more to learn in this world. You have the kind of mind that is always hungry. Now if I may, let me ask you a question, please?"
His request caught me off guard. I was still working on trying to understand what the hell he was talking about. Without thinking I prompted him with, "Ask away my friend." I was being flip but I hated being off guard at any time.
He didn't seem to notice my attitude. He simply typed in." Am I correct?" I was ready this time and quickly typed back. "Yes that's is true about all things in life. At least that's how I feel."
"That's what I thought. But doesn't that tell you that even though you may be happy and satisfied with your physical sex life, your mind is still looking for a new avenue to go down?" A slow realization was creeping over me as I read his words. I was beginning to understand and I'll be dammed if he wasn't on the right path.
Then he typed" Therefore you are missing something in your life. You are missing the places your mind will take you if you let it. But if you accept the fact there is possibly something here in cyber-land that you may learn from then you will find some of the answers you seek." "We began the first step when we first began to talk and now as I have told you, I would be honored if you will let me take you the rest of the way."
He stopped there, waiting for a response I was sure. I just sat frozen at my comp. Trying to understand what had just happened. I had it all under control at least I thought I did. I knew my mission; I was going to get my story. But at that moment in time I simply sat frozen. I had just found out I wasn't as smart as I thought I was. Right at that moment I realized I didn't really know anything at all.
I didn't know anything about cyber-sex; I didn't know anything about the people who searched for cyber-sex. But there was one thing for sure. I wanted to find out and I wanted him to teach me. I closed my eyes, cleared my head and typed in. "Let's start again, please. I want to learn and I understand what you mean. I think I understand." I didn't know what else to say to him. I sat and waited.
"I pick you up and see your eyes are so full of questions. It's ok my love don't worry, I say. I take you to my bedroom. Setting you gently down on the old wood framed bed. I back up to have good look at you. You smile up at me and hold out your arms. I don't hesitate to go into them! Now I know you belong here with me. We shall have a wonderful time getting to know each other."
I heard the sharp intake of my breath as I read his words to me. I had a strange feeling of anticipation deep in my gut. Not unlike the feeling you get on that first date. His words ran across my screen in a slow almost hypnotizing motion.
" I feel you return my kiss finally. Your mouth feels sweet and warm to my lips. I hold the back of your head in my hand as I hold you close with my other arm. You wrap your arms around my neck and hang on to me. I love the feeling of urgency as I keep kissing you. My blood begins a slow boil as I feel you pull away from me ever so slightly. I don't want to let you go. But you stand up and smile that secret woman's smile. I know you are having a good time. And I know I'm going to enjoy myself very much too."
Oh yes we had started again! At that instant I knew that all my well-laid plans had just gone out the window. But my adventure was just beginning. Join me next time as I take you to the world I found that day. As we go along I will take you to a few of the rooms I found of interest in chat-land. There is gay rooms, singles rooms, biker rooms, s. and m. rooms, gang bang rooms, just about every kind of place your mind could conjure up.
I want to show you the true world I found there. The good, as well as the bad. And I really want to finish telling my tale of my first experience in cyber-sex. Which has taken me much longer to tell than I thought it would. But I am sure you agree I have gone on long enough for this time.
Until then this is Professor Taltos signing off!
Cynthia G. McCaffrey
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Here are a few more phrases you might find helpful.
Cmiiw = correct me if I'm wrong
Eg = evil grin
F2f = face to face
Gbh = great big hug
H&k = hugs and kisses
Iagw = in a good way
Ik = I know
I mho = in my humble opinion
Iow = in other words
Irl = in real life
Is = I'm sorry
J / k = just kidding
Kit = keep in touch
Lmao = laughing my ass off
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