Never assume you know anything!
Your Instructor is Professor Taltos
Last time we met we were approaching our first cyber-sex experience. 'Thebeast' had whispered and I had answered him. I was surprised at the response I felt going into this area of cyber-land. It was as if I was in a real room and there were real people sitting around drinking real coffee. The illusion was good.
My sudden unexplained irrational fear had no bearing in reality. He couldn't touch me or see my face. So what was I afraid of? The fear left me feeling rattled. It's not an emotion I am use to feeling in any perspective of my life. I knew that to not continue would bug me forever so I was committed to going through with this silly game.
These were the things running through my mind. My thoughts kept racing making it hard for me to concentrate. Needing to focus I began giving myself a pep talk. As I tried to answer his simple questions. I ordered my mind try to sort out my emotions and I worked on relaxing, I wanted to be sure I was going about this the proper way.
I knew one thing for sure. If 'Thebeast' and I had been really sitting across from each other I wouldn't be having a problem dealing with him. I don't mean to sound cocky but since the human relationship is my thing I have never had a problem dealing with a man on a one on one basis, if you know what I mean. I'm a hand's on type of gal I guess. The only way I have ever learnt anything was to get in there and actually do it. That is exactly how I operate.
It was right about here that I began to realize what it truly was that I feared. I feared naturally the things I didn't know. It was only human nature to fear the unknown. Things I couldn't touch, things I couldn't see, but knew were there. This wasn't a physical thing. It wasn't something I could get my hands on. This was what was making me feel uncomfortable. I had no material or bases to go on. Therefore I was out of my usual element. Here I was going to be flying blind.
Once again I realized I had to stop analyzing everything before I chickened out. I took another deep breath to clear my head. I knew he couldn't touch me and I knew he would never know who I was. Clutching to these facts I began to do as he asked.
He was instructing me to focus my attention on nothing but what he was writing. " Clear your mind of everything around you." He was saying. " Make those words in front of you the only thing in your world right now."
'Thebeast' had a way of expressing himself that came across as soft and gentle whispers. It made me feel like I was sitting right there with him. I could actually visualize him sitting at his computer. (Not naked) In his nice cozy little farmhouse, his horse put to bed in the barn. I don't know why but that was the effect he had on me. I could almost smell his after-shave, if I had tried hard enough I'm sure I could tell you what kind it was. These things were very real as he continued typing out his commands. And I began to forget we were hundreds of miles apart.
"Just relax sweetie." He continued on. " Put yourself in my hands. I promise I won't hurt you." There was an unmistakable southern drawl in his tone. I could almost hear it. He continued on. "You're sitting in my living room. All comfy, a nice cup of coffee in your hands. I sit down next to you. I put my hand under your chin and make you look into my eyes. I see a slight shadow of fear on your face. You hesitate not sure what to do, run or stay." I was starting to get the idea. It was becoming easy to imagine.
" I take your hand," He whispered to me. "I turn it over and kiss the palm ever so softly. My kisses wander up your arm to your neck." Was it getting warm in my little computer room? "I whisper softly to you, how pretty you are, how wonderful you smell. I take your face gently in my hand. It looks small cause I have big hands." "I want to take you far away from here. I want to make you cry out my name. I want to show you all the magic you've been missing. Missing in your real world, a world that's stiff and starch. A world that keeps all emotion at bay most of the time. In my world you have no limitations, every fantasy is yours if you wish, my love."
" I outline the shape of your lips with my finger then I begin to kiss you. Slowly at first but I suddenly feel a hunger. I grab the back of your head. My lips bruising yours as I force my tongue into your mouth. You don't really resist. I feel your deep throated moan as I release my grip on you, almost pushing you away from me.".. "I sit back and notice your breathing is heavier and faster than a moment ago. I know you want this as bad as I do. I just have to get you to see it."
He stopped here for a moment. I waited dumbfounded at the slow burn that was starting in the pit of my stomach. I brushed it off to the newness of this experience. I continued to watch, fascinated, as he typed on.
" I take your hand in mine and pull you to your feet. Your eyes flash at me." " I see the challenge that sparks deep in your green beauties. You need to feel the release; you need me to take my time with you. I will show what your body already knows. You want to feel my hands on you. You want me to pick you up and take you to bed. I can tell. You just don't know it yet."
I heard an in-take of breath, dam it had come from me! As I looked around me I had an odd feeling of being way far away from the room itself. It was as if I was sitting with him. Listening, watching as he touches me with his words. And I'll be dammed but I liked what I was hearing. I liked it very much. I waited impatiently for him to continue.
He finally began again. "Are you okay, Baby?" He asked and it touched me for some reason. Making me feel as if he was really concerned over my mental state. "I'm fine, thank you sir. Please continue." I watched as the words came up on my screen. For a brief moment I wasn't sure who had typed them. I looked at my hands like they belonged to a stranger, and realized in many ways they did. I smiled to myself thinking how amazing the human mind really is.
"I'll take you now, my lady, in my arms and down the hall. I'll take you to my bed and make love to you, in a way you will never forget. I'll open your mind and soul to the secrets that lay within them. And then you will know what it means to be complete. When your mind and soul join as one you will be whole. As I take you in my arms feeling the slight stiffening as you realize there is no stopping now."
Here he stopped, just stopped dead and I waited. He never sent a word for a long time and I was frozen in time.
I was shocked by the next words I read from him. "Do you want to go on?" He asked simply. "I replied "Yes! " without hesitation. "Then you must do something for me." Was he asking me to participate? My reply was easy. "What do you what me to do?"
I'm going to stop here until next time. I promise next time I will pick up exactly where I left off. I will be sure to include all the details for you. But I do think I have gone far enough for now. The subject of cyber-sex has started to turn out a lot harder to write than I thought.
This adventure has shown itself to be far more informative and exciting than I dreamed possible. I am so very glad I decided to go on it (I love my work)
LOL!
Until next time this is Professor Taltos signing off for now!
Here are a few phrases you may find helpful..
BC = be cool
BF = boyfriend
B/C = because
DIY = do it yourself
F = female
FNB = football and beer
FOCL = falling of my chair laughing
FYA = for your amusement
G2G = got to go
HAGD = have a good day
IAC = in any case
IC = I see or in character
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